My boys

Not sure where to start, I am still hesitant to share too much.  Do I start at the beginning or just by topic? I will start with my children. Two beautiful boys. Gifts to me from up above. I always tell them everyday, that they are my biggest blessings. Every so often I ask them what is my best gift, they answer with Aidan and I or Connor and I.  I could never comprehend the love I would have for my children. It radiates. Now, don't get me wrong, I lose my patience (often) and there are days I want to run out of the house screaming. But in my heart those boys are my life. My reason for being.  The love for my children was there before I even knew my husband existed. Everything I have accomplished before they were born was for them. Attaining my degrees in college were not for me but for their future.  My love for them is impermeable. It is the closest thing I can compare to God's love for us.

I even dreamt of them before they were born, before I was engaged and before I knew how much joy a sleeping baby on your chest can bring. The dream was so real that I knew it would occur in the future. They were actually the ages they are now. We were at a event in our local arena. I was sitting in our seats with a young child (my youngest son) while my husband (my boyfriend at the time) took the older child (my older son) to the bathroom. My husband came back saying my son's pants were too small. I felt a horrible guilt trip and even woke up from the dream feeling that way. Heck I still do thinking about the dream. However, that dream gave me much solace during worrisome times in my life when my children were babies.

What a blessing to get a glimpse of your unborn children.

Also, I would just like to say my oldest son's pants currently do not fit him very well, since he grows like a weed. This could easily happen any day. However I am so paranoid anytime we go to the arena for an event that I always double check :P

Sweet dreams